A few changes and a lot of thinking...

So, recently... I've become crazy busy.

And for some reason this has lead me to blogging...

Dunno how that happened.

I'm now a Second year at Birmingham University, studying BSc. Psychology with Honours, and FUCK it's dawned on me A) how important this year is to my life and B) how much work I have to do.

But, there is more to me that just being a Uni student.

I'm also a huge nerd.

And by nerd I don't mean academics... I mean science fiction. Mainly Harry Potter with a bit of Doctor Who on the side.

Yeah

So, I've done conventions for about the past 18 months because of the nerd-ness.

But only in July of this year did I decide to attempt to cosplay as Amy Pond.

Why did I do this? Simple: I love dressing up, love Doctor Who and think I look like her.

Hair: Check

Height: Check

Body: Check

Legs: Check

Add a costume thrown together in 24 hours from things I already owned, and voila.

So really, it was very lazy costuming that lead me to her.

I love it. So much. I really do.

Not only have I met some amazing people through it, as I do at any convention I go to...

But mainly because I'm not the most confident person, and when I'm dressed as Amy I get so many compliments it's unreal. It's odd, in a way, as I'm so not used to that. At all.

You can call me egotistical if you like, I really don't care. Why? Because:

I was always the funny looking geeky kid that got bullied.

For fourteen years of school that is all I was.

Now, because of Amy I actually feel good about myself... occasionally. But at least that is something.

So, I have a lot to thank her for.

BUT

I also have a lot to hate her for.

Amy brought me this amazing new found sense of confidence, yes. But she also brought more drama than I can cope with.

One thing you should know about me: I HATE drama and confrontation

I hate arguments.

I hate bitchyness.

I. Hate. Jealousy.

And Amy has brought a hell of a lot of that into my life.

So, however much I love playing her... I think to myself an awful lot: is she worth it?

As I said, I have so so so much work on at uni right now I wonder if I have the time and energy to play her for much longer.

But I also feel that if I give her up then that is a choice that I will regret forever. Lets face it, my time costuming as Amy is short, a few years at the very most... so maybe I should keep her for now and try and ignore the jealousy.

Eugh. Another thing about me:

I fail at making decisions.

TTFN.